I have met an amazing woman. I call her mine now. It’s definitely a different kind of situation. She’s married. With kids. Her husband knows too. Everybody involved knows. Everybody is happy. Mostly.
There is still friction. Still difficulties within things, typical of a regular relationship.
Her husband feels left out and lonely. He gets the attention that I do. In all honesty he actually gets more time with her typically. But he thinks her and I get more time with her since we work at the same lace. But at work we are only co-workers. And we don’t really get time together.
Lately it’s been a bit more difficult. More has come into play. Her best friend is having a really hard time. She has history with her. Not relationship, but history. History I don’t like. It makes me nervous. I trust her. She gives me no reason not to trust her. But I don’t trust her friend. Her friend is a serial cheater. She doesn’t deal with conflict. She’s hurting. She wants my girl near her to comfort her. I understand wanting the comfort. I understand wanting your friend near by to help you through the pain. But I can’t get myself to feel comfortable with it. Especially since my girl will be going 4 hours away to do so.
I don’t know how to feel. I’ve hurt for that past two days. Since I knew Squirrel needed her. Since I know she needs to go to her. She asked Squirrel if I could come too. And Squirrel said she doesn’t want that. I understand to a point. She’s hurting and she wants to be with someone familiar. But I don’t trust her.
And now to top it off, Squirrel said something to the husband that my girl is trying to get clarification on, and she doesn’t want me looking at it. She says she'lll talk to me about it once she has it clarified, but it’s eating at me. We don’t keep secrets. We have a Open and Honest policy. Everything is in the open. We don’t hide feelings. We talk things out. It sometimes causes a bit of a feud, it gets resolved Like this thing with Squirrel.
My girl has said she wishes she hadn’t said anything about Squirrel. About their history. She doesn’t like that it caused me hurt. That it’s made me question things. I’m having trouble. Trouble continuing the trust with the newer secrets coming.
We’ve always been open. All conversations were open to each other’s eyes. But she doesn’t want my eyes on this. I’m losing trust.
